Last night was the season finale of Parenthood on NBC. This season has been a long journey for Julia and Joel as they have worked to adopt a child. I've been waiting on pins and needles to see how their adoption experience goes and last night it culminated in a child for them. My husband and I watched the past two episodes last night and when it was over, I turned and said to him... I feel so lucky that we didn't go through that. I can't imagine what it would be like to hold the baby you've been waiting on, and then have the birth mother change her mind.
But then with Logan... it was so much riskier. I was there, like Julia, in the delivery room. I saw Logan being born. I held her and sobbed, knowing this was my child. And I worried that C* would change her mind. On some level, I think it would have been ok if she had changed her mind. We wanted to be Logan's parents - but we also knew that we had Lorelai at home. If Lorelai's birth mother would have changed her mind, we would have gone home and still not been parents. If Logan's had done so, we would have gone home to Lorelai. And while we would have been incredibly sad and disappointed, we still had Lorelai. And I would have understood if she had changed her mind. With both birth mothers, I would have understood. I wouldn't have been angry with them. I know I wouldn't have. I would have been sad, but I would have supported their decision. And in the end, neither one changed their mind. We brought home Lorelai. And we brought Logan home to meet her big sister.
As I watched that episode last night, I just kept thinking about what our lives would be like without Lorelai or Logan. I can't imagine living in a house that is not constantly buzzing with their noise. I can't imagine not getting all the hugs and kisses, not having toys scattered everywhere, and not finding handprints on every glass surface in our home. I love every moment with them. And while it's just a TV show, I'm glad that Julia and Joel got their new son so they will now how wonderful it is to have two little ones running around their home. They're lucky, just like we are.